I’ve barely browsed the community, and have never posted, but seeing everyone share about their pandemic slumps has refilled my depleted motivation. It’s really incredible how seeing you’re not alone can be such a powerful motivator.
Pre-lockdown, I was in a new town where I didn’t know anybody, and had just scouted out some Japanese language meet-ups to attend. Needless to say, that didn’t happen lol. My speaking skills had already gotten rusty, but now I can’t even put a sentence together.
I know I’m not the only one on here who thought lockdown would give them all the time in the world to study Japanese but then that just…didn’t…happen.
In March, I had 700 reviews and 456 lessons. The approach to self-study I’ve always taken is “don’t do it if it isn’t fun.” Well apparently, I didn’t think doing my lessons and reviews sounded fun for 7 months. Logging on October 8 and seeing 888 reviews triggered some anxiety for sure. I couldn’t look at the dashboard without my heart racing a little, but 888 on October 8 was such a nice evenness to it that I dove in anyway and now have it whittled down to 350 reviews! Once it’s under 100, I’ll start lessons again.
Half way through writing all this, I realized I have no idea what I’m trying to say here. Maybe I’m just hoping by putting this out there, I’ll have some accountability to keep me from getting overwhelmed and dropping off again. Maybe I was just happy to see I’m not alone here.
But to everyone who is making their way back on here, great job! Maybe you get stressed out looking at all the reviews that have stacked up, or were close to burning some radicals and kanji and now you can’t remember what they mean. Don’t worry about it and just push through! It’s still in your brain somewhere, you just gotta tease it out. And for the love of god don’t try to power through your review pile too fast. Feeling like you HAVE to do something is the fun killer (i think paul atreides said that once…)