So I began learning Japanese through an online course for N5. However having been into Japanese culture, anime, and so on for the entirety of my teenage years, I wanted to practice speaking more than just clearing exams.
What really puts me off though is my introvert-ish nature. So to say I’d be ok with chatting but not actual human confrontation .
I did have Japanese friends living near me at one time, but hadn’t made much efforts to speak the language. And since they knew how to converse in English I didn’t bother trying.
But now that I moved to another country, I deeply regretted not engaging in conversations with them in Japanese.
Even with the few attempts I did made to speak to them I ended up feeling embarrassed or felt like I sounded stupid. ( Not to mention I had a sort of inferiority complex when they spoke in Japanese to a non-native and sounded so much more casual)
Although I have found apps that can let you converse with people online, I can never get past my anxiety of starting a conversation in a new language. Besides, my country limiting accessibility to online video chatting services just adds more to my frustration (and isolation)
If anything meeting up with a person around my area who can converse in Japanese with me seems like the only option. And knowing my nature I doubt I can do it.
So any suggestions on how I should go about practicing my speaking and maybe overcoming my fear?