Well, you said my writing is inspiring, but you pretty much just left me without words for the whole day Sorry that I took this long to reply. I wanted to take my time to reply, as I’m sure a lot of dedication went through making your post
Depression sucks - but please realize you’re not fighting it alone.
We all have our moments in life. I surely had mine before, and Japanese did indeed help me see life from another perspective. We all get stuck in our own world, I am no different. Learning Japanese to me was like climbing a different mountain. Guess what: while I’m climbing, I’m able to look to the same mountains where I once was… they’re not perfect mountains, but they’re surely look beautiful now. I couldn’t see that beauty before, since they were the thing I was stuck to, but now I do. I decided to focus on something significant and get away from what was pushing me back, and that allowed me to learn a new perspective about life.
Talent dictates nothing, trust me.
Talent without it being nurtured, leads nowhere. The opposite is also true. No matter how much you feel that others are more naturally adept to do something, if you put up the work, you can also achieve those same magnificent things (and more). Don’t forget that we live in the the era of information. All the knowledge is out there to be conquered
Let me give you an example: I was naturally talented in math as a kid. Until 9th grade, everyone told me I would end up being a University Professor working in some way with math. I’d easily ace math tests. I kinda dare to lend my calculator to my friends who would forget to bring one to tests and do them without one. But after 10th grade, my passion died. No matter whatever talent I had before, I stopped appreciating and nurturing it like I used to. That talent went away and math was literally by far my worst subject during high school. I’m majoring in something that barely has anything to do with math.
What if I told you that I naturally suck at languages? Would you believe me?
Well, please do, because it’s true. Portuguese was always by far my worst subject in school (before math decided to steal that place). I make typos all the time, I write weird things all the time. My posts? I edit them more often than not. Ask anyone I’m close to here on the forums.
But somehow I’m learning my 3rd language and making posts about learning it. The difference is that this time, I’m passionate about this. From the little talent that I have, I’m somehow being able to nurture it.
Life is weiird!! I “lost” the talent for math and now I spend my days partially talking about learning Japanese, languages being my weak-point before! So why judge yourself in comparison to others? You’re competing with yourself and no one else
And please, pretty please. We’re all here to pull each other up. Don’t think you’re unworthy of receiving help. Sometimes we don’t realize how much we’re helping someone. You made this post and that gave me strength to conquer my day. See how life works? I pull you up and you pull me up
Whatever’s next for you, look up. Be pacient for the long-term results, but don’t be afraid to take a step forward towards a better future for you. You don’t need to climb the staircase all in one go. I surely ain’t. I fear a lot of things every day. We all do. The difference is in deciding if you should allow those things to stop you from achieve magnificent things. Do it not to run from misery, but to run towards happiness.