I joined Wanikani and didn’t bother reading any of the For Beginners stuff. I just did my reviews every day, sometimes multiple times a day. Basically whenever I thought about it and refreshed.
I bought my subscription in preparation for Lv 4 and because of that I noticed all of the beginner guides and scripts and all these other things I didn’t realize existed.
Now that I know how Wanikani works, everything has gotten so much more stressful. What I used to see as a failure to help me grow I now see as lost progress. Every single failure brings me farther away from my goal instead of closer.
I’m trying to make a schedule now because that’s what I was advised to do on the forums, and now Wanikani is getting way more in the way since I have to do it on the hour instead of just doing it whenever I notice I have reviews.
I used to be happy with my progress but now I can’t help but think about everyone else’s progress and am I going too slow? Too fast? Should I download self study so I don’t get the initial four hour reviews wrong (I always get them wrong) or should I download the ignore my wrong answer thing? Will I abuse it?
I’m almost done Level 2 on Pimsleur and I find myself thinking about what if I stopped and just focused on Wanikani so I stop doing so poorly. That’s a terrible idea, I know, but I can’t help but wonder what I’m doing wrong.
And now I’m in tears. Because I got less than 50% on my reviews when I reviewed them in four hours like the internet said to, and because of that I’m not doing things the way I’m supposed to be doing them. I told myself earlier that when I do them again today I’ll do them better, and I did do a little bit better but I misspelled three words I knew the answer to and now I’m going to be seeing those words for a long time apparently when before I didn’t even think about it.
I didn’t care about getting the wrong answer before and I just want to go back to learning without caring so much about my percentage or about doing things efficiently! I wish I didn’t know how the damn programmed worked, so that seeing a red answer and a downwards arrow feels more like a slap on the wrist than a slap to the face!