Note: There’s a TLDR at the bottom for ya’ll, but hopefully, you’ll enjoy the full story more 
I’m going to apply for the JET program next October, hoping to get some Japanese under my belt before that. If you want the full story, read bellow, warning, it’s quite long.
That ambition may sound tame, but there’s a bit more of a story behind this if you want the full whammy. I come from a country who’se native language (Welsh) is essentially dead, the government are trying their hardest to preserve it, it’s on all the road signs and is a legal requirement for most privately owned stores over a certain size to have key signage in welsh (the reason I’m talking about Welsh will become apparent in a moment).
Unfortunately, despite the government’s best efforts, because of a rabid attempt at eradication of the language by the English education boards during the 1900’s (they would have a ‘welsh cane’ and whip students in the face that spoke welsh), unless you live in the north, there’s absolutely no reason to retain the language, and as such I deeply struggled to attain even a basic grasp of the language due to a pretty poor welsh education department.
Despite this I FUCKING LOVED languages, and I loved learning French and German at school, the foreign language department were all too eager to have me for GCSE level, and I was more than happy to oblige.
Unfortunately (this is the key part where Welsh is concerned) because I was in the top set classes for German and French, getting A’s and A*'s left right and center, the language department decided to put me in the ‘Accelerated Welsh’ classes, despite my repeated inability to demonstrate even a functional grasp of the language. I probably averaged an ‘E’ for most of my Welsh, despite this, no they were perfectly adamant I was perfect capable to be in the advanced classes. The Welsh department was eventually all redeployed not long after I left school due to gross incompetence (our classes had the worst results in the entirety of South Wales) and I managed to scrape a D in the end, only because the teachers decided to inflate our grades by giving us a script to read from during the oral examination, despite to say, I can’t fucking speak a single sentence of the language except for “I like coffee”. This was just the beginning of my fallout with languages from school.
So on top of being predicted A’s in a language I couldn’t even tell you what color my socks were in, and the expectations that came with that, I was also put into an accelerate French programme, which meant I was able to sit my French GCSE a year earlier than everyone else. The deal was, if I completed my GCSE, I would be permitted to sit my French AS level a year later when I was doing the second year of my other GCSEs. Essentially this meant I would walk out with 4/5 A levels (if I carried it on to A level) and 5 AS Levels instead of just 4. HOWEVER, after I completed my French GCSE, they told us the deal had changed, and we now had to sit a SPANISH GCSE instead! Now at this point, I only knew how to say “hola mi amigos!” an that’s it, and they expected us to get a full blown GSCE (which usually take 4 years of preparation) in 1 year…
Yeah by this point I had just had a fucking nough, my teachers had worn down all ambition I had, I fell into stem sciences for my A levels and go pushed down the route of trying to get into medicine just because I was ‘good’ at science, but I had spent the last five years not being listened to by my teachers about something I was truly passionate about, so eh, why not let them make my single most important life decisions for me and dictate what I should do in uni too? May as fuckin well.
Cue three years of absolute hell, got my degree but only fuckign barely. Got into therapy two years after, and as a challenge I decided to really listen to what I wanted for a change. I lost my job in a Genetics Lab due to stress (they deemed it incompetence but it was far from that, so many compounding issues) and it took until I was in London one day with my dad, we went to the Science Museum, and I realised how simply fucking bored I was there that I realised, though I liked science, as was certainly good at it, I didn’t care enough to make a career of it. We then headed over to the London Postal museum, and I can’t tell you what a blast of a time we had there. Something clicked that something wasn’t right, so I went back to look at what I really loved and what I wanted to do.
That’s when I relaised what I really loved was Cultural Anthropology, and by extension of that languages. The Postal Museum made me realise that I was more interested in people’s solutions to problems and their application than the actual science behind things, how these solutions evolve and how different cultures find different solutions to different problems, I remembered back to days as a child where I was completely enamored by ancient Egypt, how their beliefs shaped their technologies and cultures, all these ever changing, ever growing aspects, how language evolved and changes and becomes a reflection of that culture. So I set myself the task of learning the language I always wanted to learn but always told “No, it’s too hard, no that’s the language you can never learn! No it can’ be done, not by you”.
Japanese, I thought if I can do this, and still love every second of it, then Ill know I’m on hte right path to recovery and finding myself again. And guess, what, 8 months later, and I’m FUCKING loving every single second of this beautiful, fun, playful, rich and exciting language! I’ve never looked back, and moving forward I doubt I ever will. Fuck STEM, fuck teachers, fuck restrictive schooling sytstem, fuck not listening to my own wants and feelings, languages are here to stay.
TLDR; Extremely gifted language student, pushed into STEM subjects because of Teacher’s own biases, and my skill in those subjects (told there’s no money in Languages, cultural studies or Arts, and I’ll die starving and penniless) as well as completely fucking incompetent language department that couldn’t facilitate my learning needs on either side of the spectrum (when ever I needed support, or whenever I needed to be pushed harder), fell out of love with languages, when to uni for a Bio-science degree and fucking hated every second of it, years of therapy later, and decided to reignite that passion by really challenging myself with language that has always been described to me as ‘too difficult for you to learn!’, and have fallen in love once again, don’t find it challenging at all, it’s so much fun, now plan to travel abroad and maybe do a masters in Anthropology/Languages instead, really finding myself through this journey with you guys, so thank you each and every one of you reading this.