I’ve been planning for a while now to use WaniKani + Bunpro as my primary Japanese learning resources. I’ve been using WaniKani for three and a half months now and am currently at level 8, and once I finish level 10 I plan to start using Bunpro alongside WaniKani for keeping my grammar up with my vocabulary/Kanji skills. I also purchased A Dictionary of Basic Japanese Grammar to supplement my grammar studies.
I felt like this was an awesome way to learn Japanese since both WaniKani and Bunpro have worked exceptionally well for me up until now. I tried many different methods of learning and this has been by far the best I’ve found. I feel like I’m making great progress and have been having lots of fun with it and developed good habits to keep me on top of my work.
That is, until earlier today when I was visiting my family and I mentioned the costs to them, and they seemed to have negative reactions. I mentioned that I had spent $66.30 (USD) on my studies so far (3 months WaniKani + ADoBJG book) and planned to spend an additional $19.82 on two more months of WaniKani and then $320 to buy both Bunpro and WaniKani lifetime subscriptions during the Christmas sale (coming out to $406.12 total). They seemed disappointed by this, and my father went on a monologue basically saying “Well, that’s okay. I spend money on things I don’t need too sometimes.”
In that moment I felt embarrassed, like it’s silly of me to spend so much money on something so trivial as learning a language. (Especially since I’m only doing it as a hobby. I have no need to learn Japanese.) My whole life I’ve always been a huge proponent of self-teaching and growing up I taught myself a lot of very valuable skills - always using free resources. But now that I’m older I’m much more comfortable spending money on my hobbies, and so this is by far the most money I’ve ever spent on a hobby.
This conversation left me feeling kind of stupid, like I should just self-teach myself Japanese and not fall into this trap of paying (lots of) money to learn something that I could just learn using free resources available all over the internet. But up until then, I felt totally confident in my decision to spend money on these resources.
So now I’m very torn. Am I being stupid spending so much money to learn Japanese? Should I just go find some free resources to use instead? I’ve tried quite a few free resources (RTK, Anki, Tae Kim’s Grammar Guide, Cure Dolly’s grammar series, etc) and all of them felt like banging my head against the wall. But perhaps I didn’t look hard enough? Perhaps there’s something I’m missing and I’m just being lazy settling for WaniKani and Bunpro because it’s easier than continuing to look for free options?
Or am I totally overthinking all of this and I should just stick with my current plan since it’s working so well, and consider the $400 a worthy investment? I’m not rich by any means. I have very little money and $400 is a large portion of it.
tl;dr - I was really excited to shill out $400 on my Japanese learning, but after a conversation with family it has me second-guessing myself and feeling like I just fell for some kind of scam, paying $400 for something that’s available for free all over the web. What do I do?