Um … I used to play Final Fantasy XI Online, which has bilingual servers and a lot of material only available in Japanese, including books on learning English while playing the game!
It has an auto-translate function that lets you carry on simple conversations with people, and I did my best to help others and get to know them. I even started learning the language back then …
Now I’m on Twitter and Pixiv, and a lot of people speak only Japanese? And I want to be able to encourage them, participate in conversations, and read and write web novels / light novels …
Basically all of the media that’s meaningful to me is either Japanese or heavily inspired by Japanese media, and much of it isn’t translated, and I don’t want to read fan translations if I can help it …
I feel less like I’m leaning a second language as a fun hobby, and more like I’m illiterate and can’t fully participate in the community, or communicate with other people. And I feel ashamed of it, but I do my best in spite of that.


