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:cow2: :seedling: July 28 :seedling: :cow2:
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Grazing :cow2: : :cow: โ†’ :seedling: (:milk_glass: pages)

So not an exciting reading day today. You could say I grazed some descriptions on books. Although I mostly google translated them, and only checked the Japanese to try and make heads or tails of the weird translations. ็Œซ็Œซ was most likely a name, not โ€œcat and catโ€. :joy:

But I wanted to post today because I did something else important instead. My stress have been raising steadily over the past week which is visible in how many days I havenโ€™t read (or barely read) in the past week. I was being squeezed with obligations from different directions that I couldnโ€™t slot into my schedule. And the pressure just rose and rose, and today I finally realized I wouldnโ€™t be able to solve my situation. Something had to give.

So Iโ€™ve initiated a reschedule of the visit from family that was planned for next week until hopefully end of August or even September. I donโ€™t know exactly since my brother had to talk to his partner and consult his schedule, etc. But the pressure on me immediately let up, and I felt like I could properly start breathing again.

My energy didnโ€™t snap back instantly, but I could feel every cell in my body unclench and begin to relax after I initiated the reschedule, so Iโ€™m hopeful Iโ€™ll get back to normal fairly quickly. And suddenly, I have energy for all those things I need to get done, now that I have a bit more time to get them done. ^^

Iโ€™m glad I for once didnโ€™t blame myself for not being enough and tried to fight through the overwhelm (which I canโ€™t do in a good way). Instead I asked myself if there was something I could change and decided to try. If I couldnโ€™t change things, I could have always fallen back on my usual method of trying to forge on and putting a serious dent in my mental health.

Take care of yourselves, all you lovely people here. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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