i had a bad day yesterday, mental-health-wise. and had just finished Kase-san, so didn’t really have anything i could just pick up and read (i mean, there’s that LN, but let’s not talk about that
). decided to, very late in the day, see if amazon would give me any suggestions. so most of my “reading” was spent on the amazon website. very different from reading a book or manga, but probably also a useful skill, getting around websites in japanese.
finally picked out アネモネ, another teenage love-story between girls.
self-reflective rambling
i’ve been asking myself why i’m so drawn to these stories? i’ve never read love-stories before, and as a teenager i’d have scoffed at anybody suggesting i might ever want to read such. but today remembered that i was a deeply unhappy, incredibly lonely teen, dealing with problems i wouldn’t wish on anyone. and my one teenage love ended in a traumatic fashion, for both of us. perhaps i’m looking for some kind of healing, at this much later point?
i’ve read two chapters of アネモネ now, and i’m liking it. the tone is rather more somber than the other manga i’ve read, and though i hope for a happy end, i fear it might get a bit dark first. Mashiro, the love-interest, has some so-far unknown sickness. in the first 2 chapters there’s already been 3 scenes in the school sick-room, including the opening/framing scene, which seemed to indicate that they would both get way to familiar with that room.
i’ve also decided to read this a little more intensively than the last few manga. i’m looking up more kanji, paying a bit more attention to the grammar. finding a balance between fuller understanding and disrupting the flow.
and now it’s 1 am, i’m still sitting outside in a light t-shirt, and the crickets are loud enough that i hear them through my headphones (i swear we didn’t have crickets like this when i was a kid!). the air is hazy with humidity, it’s going to be a very warm night. but it’s nice to ramble on in the darkness like this ^^