Hello, just some words for you
This is coming from internet stranger, but I’ve read few of your posts on these forums so you are not a complete stranger for me. And I feel sad that you are suffering right now. I think you are smart and funny and interesting person, and you are great dad. I’ve figured out that bad stuff happened in your life last summer, and now you are in not so great place. I had bad staff happen in my life 5-6 years ago, and just hear this - 6 years after, I am actually more happy than I was before. And I was in really bad headspace back than and honestly it lasted for a whole year before it got better. I still need to “work on it”, work on being happy in my life as it is now. Be kind and gentle to myself in the first place. And keep going outside for sunshine and listen to nice music, and watch nice shows, and do my WK reviews, and workout, because all these things I’m doing for myself, because one needs to love themselves first before they can be loved by others.
Tomorrow will be a new day, and hopefully there will be sun out, and one day you will suddenly feel yourself better for no reason. My only advice (which is my remedy) is taking a walk outside, and plugging some encouragement media into your ears.