June 8th, 2025
- 147 reviews on WaniKani
- 15 lessons on WaniKani
- 44 reviews on Bunpro
- 3 lessons on Bunpro
- 5 stories on Satori Reader
- Misc: Talked to a Japanese artist from Berlin at DoKomi in Japanese ^^
WHATS HAPPENING IN THIS SECRET STORY BTW xddd
I decided to read more today because this story is just WILD
I feel like I’m constantly deprived on the context and the context is dripfed with story elements like “and this is not my final form yet” xddd
I was lost and confused about this story but now I’m lost, confused and entertained, so good job on the author for pulling this off xddddd
Aside from that, WaniKani took long today, Bunpro took long today, my review block was probably closer to 1.5h today, but that’s because I was also alt-tabbing to Mitrac’s study log and thinking about responses that people have been leaving, so, once again, self-inflicted wound xddd
Before DoKomi: oversharing time!
You’re clicking on the spoiler knowing all well it’s going to be a narcissistic attention-seeking rant by myself, so if you’re allergic to those, go to the DoKomi segment, there I’ll be narcissistic attention-seeking but also documentarian xdddd
My circles of friends...
…are still great, and I love my friends quite a bit. In fact, one of my longest standing, closest friends today, showed up at DoKomi, and we’ve had a great time together.
There is some really nasty shit happening in the world though that is weighing heavily on their minds, and that reminded me of Mitrac’s study log too. It’s really freaking frustrating that people that matter to me are suffering, and that they have reasonable justifications for their suffering - in fact depression is a rational interpretation of the facts, but with a spice of an forward-angled implication that the cards are dealt and the future is decided.
I can’t say I’ve been through depression, only a few slumps, ups and downs, but I see second hand how big of an obstacle it all is to people’s normal functioning from multiple people I know, and that makes me want to scream out and makes me angry both at myself, that I can’t allow for myself to get in a state like that, and at my friends, that they’ve let depression consume them and they cannot function the way how they used to. But here’s the funny thing, a lot of criteria to fall into depression are out of people’s hands, shit life syndrome, shit politics, and so on, and one does need to make a conscious effort to break that cycle. Listening to my friend today bringing up stories of other people that have been crushed by the system, and then hearing mitrac speak about the same, is triggering that source of self-anger/motivation at myself once again.
I’m not an astrology girlie (should I? xddd), but I find 16personalities to be a fun descriptor of different types of personalities, and I don’t believe a person is a personality, but I believe a person can aspire to be a personality, and I aspire to be the ENFP manic pixie dream girl that cheers everyone up because iF I DONT THEN
- I’LL GET MYSELF INTO DEPRESSION (boo it sucks xdd)
- MY FRIENDS WILL GET FURTHER DOWN INTO DEPRESSION (BOO IT SUCKS xddd)
and i don’t know how i’m doing, but i really hope i can find as many someones who will deep down in their heart think back to their interaction with me and think that i’ve made their life, hm, more fun? More engaging? That I made a change to their lives?
Well, my friend today told me that outright and that made me feel warm on the inside again, so manic pixie dream girl again it is. Does anyone need to get inspired to pick up on their long forgotten hobby? I can gush about it to get you inspired to get into that hobby again ^^
But yeah, I had a friend like this in my own life as well, and I held onto her for a while, and she freaking blasted the doors open on my mind and possibilities that one can achieve with adventures in life, and too bad we don’t talk that much anymore, but I know all well she’s aware out there how big of a difference she made to my life. I mean, I outright told her many times, sooo ^^
And also, man. I can’t hide. It feels so validating to have Malinkal leave me a heart every night before I even go to sleep and Shannon jump in here every once in a while and go like “THIS IS WILD. IM GLAD YOU’RE HAVING FUN”. It’s just, I don’t know, tickles positive emotions so, so much ^^
But if anything: no need to worry about my mental health at the moment right now, as I’ve said at the launch of the Nintendo Switch 2, this is the fREAKING WILDEST I’VE FELT IN A LOOOONG, LOOONG TIME.
Too bad that friend of mine doesn’t get to hear my stories anymore, but if you’re somewhere out there, and you stumble upon my public diary here, thank you and I hope you’re doing well in the scary world ^^
LIFE
DOKOMI WOO
HOW DO YOU INCREASE THE FONT SIZE IN HTML GOOGLE.COM
But before DoKomi though, I gOT ABSOLUTELY DRENCHED IN WESEL xddd
OF COURSE THE TORRENTIAL RAIN PERSISTED, and I needed to jump from one roof, into another, and my hair was a total mess by the time I got to the station ^^
Luckily, the next part of my trip was underground, a metro train from Düsseldorf main station:
Yes, DoKomi is so big in Düsseldorf that they make official city-wide PSAs in the metro about it xddd
I spoke to one girl there who was making her own cosplay jewelry, I sadly didn’t have one of my own because I rushed out of Berlin quickly, but I made it work anyway (more on that later xddd)
But look how cute the chain is! Apparently she got the pieces individually from Chinese stores, then added a chain into that and got a body chain of her own. The goals ^^
By the time we arrived at the Messe, it stopped raining, and MAN, there were SO, SO many people in there. Easily tens of thousands, maybe even hundreds of thousands ^^
DoKomi this year has grown EVEN FURTHER in size than before.
I compared PAX East to DoKomi, by saying that DoKomi was multiple times bigger than PAX East; whiile PAX East used to have one hall and that was it, DoKomi’s halls weren’t that much smaller (if any smaller at all, especially the Artist’s Alley, the companies, the 18+ zone and the gaming zone)… and there were 9 OF THEM. I didn’t get to see everything in a single-day ticket today, which is rare for me, but I only pulled off like a 70% completion run of the Artists Alley and 30% completion run of the sponsors area ^^
Some of my highlights, yees, things I spoke about before! German magazine publishing! Both a stall for Manga Issho was there (and volume 2 coming out at the end of the month, of course I’m getting it!) and Koneko and friends, the biggest anime magazine in Germany, super cool, super would recommend ^^
Of course, The Apothecary Diaries were hUuUuUUUUge and there were hundreds of Cosplayers doing the Maomao cosplay… and pulling it off, very effectively. I need to get better at makeup and do my freckles, grrr xddd
YES
IT HAS POCKETS
Also, the best cosplayer of the whole DoKomi. We’ve bounced off of one another really well and apparently she’s team Die Linke, why would she lie about this xddd
CDs with signatures of actual performers! ReCoda was sick!
<nervous laughter> i wonder when is the last time i took rest now, would have to scroll up for a while xddd
Also, I LOOOVE community art like this, it’s just so cool C:
And DoKomi had its own limited edition sparkling drink for the convention, peachy, €3.50 for a can ^^
I bought many, many things, but it’ll take me a bit to get through these, so maybe tomorrow xddd
And here’s a Japanese artist who’s been living in Berlin for a decade and he’s been making small, postcard sized artwork of Berlin, I spoke some Japanese with him, we exchanged our living locations, favorite places in Berlin, and I got three postcards with Berlin artwork from him, so we stan ^^
ALSO LOOK, A DOLL YOU CAN DRESS UP AND THE ARTIST IS SELLING CLOTHES TO DRESS HER UP
Also, Instax, that’s a very GolyBidoof-centric content ^^
Obligatory frick AI at the voice actors booth:
So in the course of the convention me and my LOOOOOONG time friend met up and we went off for a ramen to the exact same restaurant as me with that other friend for the FFVII Rebirth concert ^^
We also attempted JLPT in the same place, Düsseldorf, a few months ago and I passed my N3, and she didn’t pass her N4, but I’m trying to get her to sign up in the July window once again ^^
AND LOOK LOOK I GOT ME THIS YUKATA KINDA THINGY after Shannon recommended it in Paris and I was like “ehh I should’ve gotten it”, well now I got something similar xddd
My cosplay situation was saved before the end of the convention xddd
Unfortunately, I can already see some of the seams tear bit by bit, so I need to be super careful with it, but how many times in a year can you wear it, like… 365??? Well, 366 on leap years ^^
Also, look, that deer is only half horny, but they know how to use hentai websites, CONCERNING ^^
Also, new Japanese cafe in Düsseldorf (we stan!) and another anime convention (that is in the block I was fully expecting for DoKomi to be in aaaa xd). And, fish with custard, epic C:
So yeah, I’m writing this from my hotel in Hannover right now, taking a morning train to Berlin tomorrow and I hope I’ll eat my breakfast there. Tomorrow’s post will deeefinitely be shorter and less exciting ^^
See you tomorrow! C: